Just let it out

Musekaze · Post by **Musekaze** » Mon Mar 05, 2007 4:02 pm

i had a really crappy day today so i jsut need to let all of my feeligns out. ill try to censor it as best i can.

ughh i hada really crappy breakfast and i have PE first period so i burned off all of my energy in 42 minutes. after that i had a kilelr migrane-type headache combined with a hot forehead, but a cold brain. my mind keeps tricking me into thinking things i know arnt true, and then i become to belive that they are, even thoguh i know their not. since my girlfirend broke up with me last week, with the classic "we make better freind. its not you, its me" garbage, i started having the msot random thoguhts about this one girl, but the most disturbing thisng is that shes my favourite teachers daughter, so if i did begin to date her, it would just be awkward. But im just some wahcky (but good lookin') video game nerd with a B average. I know for a fact that i'm not anybody's "type" and my ex was just a stroke of luck. so i dont wonna hear poop about otehr people have a bad life. my mind is going in like 50 million different places, and when im trying to think about video games when im supposed to be paying attention in class, i get thoguhts of my fake crush. this throws me twice as off course as i normally am and i jsut become an emo wreck. i actually am starting to become slightly more anti-social and Sephirothic (Sephirothic- A) having, or sharing chacterictics as/with Sephiroth. B) Hates Everything) feelings.

Im jsut worried about myself and my mind going in 50 million different places. PLZ HELP ME SOMEONE BEFORZE I GO INSANE!!!!

and damn i think thats the fastest ive ever typed. i should be confused mroe often

A95 · Post by **A95** » Mon Mar 05, 2007 4:45 pm

You are thinking about girls because you like them. Who cares if its your fav teachers daughter next year you won't have that teacher.

Live for the moment and stop dwelling on the past.

AntiChristMofo · Post by **AntiChristMofo** » Mon Mar 05, 2007 5:31 pm

all i can say is that your are not happy and that you need to find your happyness so trust in yourself to do the right thing so you can be happy agian

you dont need people telling you how to run your life you run your life the way you want to thats the only way your going to be happy

A95 · Post by **A95** » Mon Mar 05, 2007 6:41 pm

AntiChristMofo wrote:all i can say is that your are not happy and that you need to find your happyness so trust in yourself to do the right thing so you can be happy agian

you dont need people telling you how to run your life you run your life the way you want to thats the only way your going to be happy

B...b...but you just told him how to run his life.

*Head asplodes*

AntiChristMofo · Post by **AntiChristMofo** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 12:12 am

lmao technicaly i didnt because im not telling him how to do those things im still keeping with what i said about how he should do it his own way :p but i can see where you are comming from tho lol

Musekaze · Post by **Musekaze** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 10:17 am

Pat, technically, hes a temp teacher. my creative writing class was doing a haiku segment and hes like the haiku master of the school. so after next week he wont be my teacher anymore. and i might have him next year too if we do another thing. and he also teaches all the senior creative writers. and nevertheless, hes still my favorite teacher and im afraid he'll kill me if i tell him i like his daughter. because if anyone should know first it should be him, he can understand that stuff.

but ill prolly jsut take the advice of the poet in black, Kuro "release the fish before it is caught"

AntiChristMofo · Post by **AntiChristMofo** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 11:22 am

what you trying to say....you going to get her pregnant!!!

Terpeh · Post by **Terpeh** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 2:51 pm

Well I don't pay attention in class cause I always keep thinking about my gf. Ok she isnt my gf anymore we broke up in about a month but I kept saying that she was cause I wanted the pain to go away >.<
But now I'm seeing someone (Check Hi5 if you wanna see her but dont post any bloody comments

) and I'm totally happy cause we're gonna arrange and stuff. So you see Muse, you'll find another girl in time, and remember this, after a time of sadness and torture, there is always a longer time of happiness and joy afterwards.

Musekaze · Post by **Musekaze** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 4:14 pm

no anti, no. you seem to forget that i psoted i have an abstenence pledge. *yeah but im like f*** that, when im 18, ill do what i want. im not gonna be soem 40 yr old virgin*

im just a confused teenage mind who needs some guidance from his buddies.

and props torm! she aint pretty, but aint ugly either. a happy medium. i mean you want a hot chick, but not some snotty bitch. and you want a girl with personailty, but not some ego-centric vanity. i think you've got a happy medium.

and the fact that a friend from EW isnt #1 anymore

Mrs Xuereb:Karly-warly, whos this Will kid?

Karl: Just a freind mum

Mrs Xuereb: then how come ive never met him?

Karl: kuz hes from NWN mum.

Mrs Xuereb: Hes prolly some 40 year old stalker/child molester! get him off there *grabs karl by ear*

AntiChristMofo · Post by **AntiChristMofo** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 4:37 pm

ROFL!

Xianio · Post by **Xianio** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 5:07 pm

lol man find some sort of stress reliever and do that. Sleep, shower, find a punching bag, workout or whatever and just try and get your mind off of everything. You gotta realize that just because everything feels so bloody hectic right now is because you're throwing yourself into the middle of a dozen different things with many if's and's and but's. Take a step back and give yourself time to pause and think things over slowly. None of these things are going away and taking 1-2 hours to sort them out won't hurt.

Accept that sometimes things like break ups are going to hurt and that going out with other girls is going to have consequences. Neither of these things however are going to stop you from pursuing another girl or from moving on from the last. You have a lot more options and a lot more time to explore them then it seems right now. Take a breather and try and tackle one thing at a time. Oh and just because something may not have a solution doesn't mean that you should worry about it.

Protoss119 · Post by **Protoss119** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 5:17 pm

This is why I don't plan on getting a girlfriend; I'm just preparing myself for more disappointment.

Xianio · Post by **Xianio** » Tue Mar 06, 2007 10:21 pm

*chuckles* I promise you if you get a good one it's worth the possible disappointment. Although it may be sappy it's not just for the sex either

AntiChristMofo · Post by **AntiChristMofo** » Wed Mar 07, 2007 5:26 am

yer i understand what your saying Xianio thats happened to me dated that Laura for 3years and she ended up dumping me in septemeber i think last year and i think im still in love with her

my sleep is all messed up i get like 3 hours of sleep now because i have stopped drinking and icant stop thinking about her i use to use the alcohol to knock myself out only way i can go to sleep without thinking about her

and all i seem to want to do is talk to her and ask how she is and hows her day bin

i have bin with alot of different girls but shes the only 1 that has ever made me feel like this

i even suspened going back in the army 3 times so i could just see her 1 more time and i love the army i think its great but she was somthing else somthing i will never be able to put my finger on

Musekaze · Post by **Musekaze** » Wed Mar 07, 2007 2:59 pm

didnt you also say that she said she still loved you or something kuz ur going to afghan. ?

Gnarr, im not one for naps. i just can't sleep in the day. and if i somehow do, i get all thrown off. one time i woke up thinking it was 5 AM, and iwas eating dinner. it was 5 PM.

but yes, my main point was that im not anybody's type. so basically i get shot down in an instant. and my ex- was a shot of luck. heck, one time in 7th grade i asked a girl out on my hand. and ppl are still hanging on about that. ofcourse right after that the girl started to like me, then i lsot my chance. but it was my brother's best freinds sister. now im just sickened at my past.

i did alot of things i regret in my past, and now i just think "i shouldnt have even bothered"

and theres no point in asking a girl out that you know nothing about. i mean, its good to know a little, but it just screw up soooo bad if i did something i wasnt sposed to. like everyones a vegitarian nowadays, and im jsut confused with everything.

and i dont think my parents approve of using my sister as a punching bag. they hvnt gotten me a REAL one yet. but tehres always Wii boxing!